No more January

January was not a good month. It was very stressful and I am glad it is over. It did end on a good note though: I am back to 15lbs lost from my highest in September. I know I haven't been blogging, but I haven't been journaling either, but I am hoping to get back to both. It really helps with things.

An update from the last month:

Work/school has been very stressful. My position as treasurer of my congregation hasn't been going well. Not to mention, we don't have enough money coming in to cover all the expenses and there is serious talk of closing the school. We are in debt and last year we were not able to meet expenses...a number as big as our debt. I enjoy working here, but I've been having issues with some people around here as well and it hasn't made for a good work environment. The only shining part is my students. I have the best behaved students this year and teaching them has been a joy! Now that W2s are done, its time to start concentrating on getting the yearbook done. We also have our social studies fair and open house tomorrow night...praying for new students for next year....

Working out/eating hasn't been too bad. I did not reach a personal goal of walking on my gazelle for 10 min everyday, but I am still aspiring to it. I've also made a goal for February: Fast food free! I've been wasting so many calories and money to those places lately, it's time to cut it out for a while. I also got a Wii...maybe going to get a Wii Fit to get some workouts in and track my progress. This past weekend has had some mini binges...not gorging myself, but eating beyond what is necessary. My anxiety is up but I think it's because of everything at school and dealing with my own demons.

I just recently read this book over the weekend by a psychiatrist who specializes in helping people overcome eating disorders. Among other things he uses mental imagry to help his patients overcome certain obstacles in their eating patterns. It has really got me thinking this weekend about the reasons I eat and the fears that are keeping me fat. I think that is also what has my anxiety up this weekend. Getting past those fears might take some work, possibly by a professional.

I will go more into those later, but for now, it's time to teach. Hope everyone has a good monday :)